Why I don’t drink alcohol and why it’s okay for you to drink in front of me.

I said goodbye to my last boozey drink on December 8, 2003.
Yes. I have not touched a drop since then…and I never wanted to.

I believe I came into the world alcoholically prone and the anxiety that followed me from adolescence to adulthood cried for a chemical solution before there really were any.

So I drank.

I drank to fill the hole, to calm the nerves, to make everything (including me) feel special….it left me the next morning always reaching for the next high.

I knew I had to stop…even during an abusive marriage and a total career revamp AND relocation…I knew I had to stop during the loss of all 3 of my beloved grandparents in the span of 3 years…I drank..and drank. Every single night.

On the day I was done, I had help. I needed accountability and structure and support. I had help. As a performer I had spent a lot of time in bars and clubs and I was scared at how I could do it sober. Really scared…

Then something amazing happened. I walked into my first gig as a sober woman and I looked around at all the people drinking and laughing…and I realized “I never drank like that. I drank to numb and shut out…I drank because I could not stop once I started. Most in this room drinking here tonight, they are relaxed and drinking socially. Big difference.”

It relieved me enough to give one of the best performances I ever gave…I thought alcohol made me a better more exciting performer but it just made me sloppy.

People used to ask, “is it okay for me to drink around you?” and I loved being able to smile and say YES! I don’t use it anymore. Enjoy yourself. Life is lighter now…brighter now…
and I am so grateful for my sobriety.

As a booze free woman, I met and married my husband and gave birth to my beloved daughter. As a booze free woman I created my own online business that continues to grow and serve …because I am focused and passionate about helping women gain their own freedom. I know better than most, the chains of imprisonment…in an addiction…in a marriage… in a stifled voice…in an unfulfilling career.
My journey still serves… and I am grateful. much love to YOU.

What comfort is REALLY for…

Leap out! in warm cashmere.

Jump off! in a pink bubble.

Stand strong! in soft billowing blue cotton.

Dear One:

Let us talk about the COMFORT Connection:

Throughout my life, I used to consider comfort as a supreme destination…the end-all to any suffering I may be in..

Comfort: ahh…the antidote to all that ails…

I missed the whole point of it.

I realized that Comfort plays a supporting role in our own supreme discomfort, yes.
Indeed, to have one without the other would not make sense.

I truly believe that Comfort exists so that we can experience discomfort and keep moving forward in spite of ourselves and our circumstances.

As a spiritual being in human form, we stand less chance at growth and fulfillment if we did not have our COMFORTS along the way.
A hand held, a warm mug, a soft dog, a healthy check-up, a friend.

But we are not meant to STAY in the still warm cocoon. We are not meant to stop and burrow…not for long anyway.
We are here to become the best version of ourselves in spite of ourselves and the challenges this human life brings. We are here to expand in love and awareness.

So, take your comfort, gather your soul nourishment and…
keep moving forward.
Wrap yourself in your special comforts and Keep moving forward into the face of the unknown…because when you are comfortable with the unkown- therein lies the gold that surpasses your wildest dreams.

It. is. true.

*This week, decide on one important thing you have been putting off. Do (or take the first step towards doing) this one thing while engaging in something special just for you. Some little comfort nestled around your ears and wrapped around your heart as this warrior cloaks herself in armor.

Go on now…

Leap out~in warm cashmere.
Jump off~ in a pink bubble.
Stand strong~ in soft billowing blue cotton.
You are and always will be infinite Love so…

No worries, precious warrior…
just JUMP.